This has happened more times than I can count and with more things than I can remember. But the most recent time was earlier today when I was walking around the neighborhood. Let me explain some background things. I was almost hit by a car earlier this year. So, I hate to admit it, but I'm kind of afraid of cars now. Not severely, but there's some uneasiness there. And I had a very abusive boyfriend who certainly did NOT like the fact I broke up with him. He became violent (more than usual) and the police were called. Even though I live hours away from him it still scares me. Him knowing where I live and such. Anyway. When I was walking today I started thinking about getting hit by a car and it backing up over me, trying to run over my head. But I curled my head down so it missed. I pass out from the pain and wake up in the hospital high as hell on pain meds. Some of my old friends come in and I'm sitting up in the hospital bed dancing, but there's no music. Then I get my phone and start calling people. One of my friends tries to take it away. They say, "You're high! Get off the damn phone!" Then the police came and asked me who did it and I told them I didn't know but could guess. My abusive ex.
The reason for this random bit of shit is because for 20-30 minutes after it ended I felt high.
I apologize for my language. Usually I censor it but I'm still a little giddy from that.
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