Strange trance

I just came out of a trance a few minutes ago.  It was the strangest one I've ever experienced.  My sister appeared in her usual light yellow dress and I came out of my body to interact with her, which is not unusual.  After awhile said she had to go.  I grabbed on tight to her arm and told her to take me with her.  She said no, she couldn't, to think of our parents.  I said I didn't care, I looked back to my body laying on the bed and told her that my body was too damaged.  I could feel my soul lifted out of my body as my sister and the apparition of myself left.  My hands began to feel strange and it slowly began to work its way up my arms.  I saw a grassy feild with small houses scattered on it.  I couldn't decide whether to run from my sister so she couldn't take me back or to stay close to her, hugging her arm tightly.  I didn't stay, I soon found myself back in my room.  But I tried many more times (in the same trance) to get back.  But I never could.  I want her to come get me.  Take me to the place where she resides.  Every plan I make gets shattered.  Every dream gets broken.  I thought I was going to die there.  This world has shown me no mercy.  I want to be rid of it.  Though I'm not suicidal.  I want rid of this world but I still want a chance to be truly happy here.