I don't know

I feel like writing something here but I'm not sure what... I'm so depressed. I just want to be happy. Why can't I have a little happiness? Why can't a few things work out for me? This place I'm staying at... As I continue to learn more about the program I continue to find things that make me unhappy and sometimes absolutely miserable. Fuck this place. Let me learn a trade. Wood working and metal working. But "the program doesn't allow apprenticeships". So what am I supposed to do? Go to college and take classes I will inevitably hate, learn things I probably already know, be ignored by the teacher because he/she is too busy trying to keep the complete disaster students from getting themselves killed, and all in an environment completely unconducive to how I most effectively learn.