What's going on?

I don't know anymore.  Is my transition date going to be pushed back again because of more med changes?  Or will it remain the same because I've been on this medicine?  I desprately want out of here.  I want to move on.  I want to get somewhere.  I do not deny that this place has been very helpful but it's time for me to leave.  I'm no longer getting anything out of this place, besides bitterness and resentment towards this place and these people.  I know I need to stay for the second then third stages, but when will I get to them?  When will I be able to gain an actual life?  When will I be able to try out the things I've learned?  Dear god please make it soon...