Thinking...

I've been thinking about my ex a lot. I don't mean to, but I can't seem to get her out of my mind. She was the first person who made me feel wanted and needed and cared for. But now she's gone, and on my mind. She's been stuck in my head for days and I don't know what to do. My thoughts of her are intermingled with thoughts like 'No one loves me. No one wants me. Why was I even placed here? I know I'd be missed if I died, but would the release of the burden I place on others be worth it?'. I'm so depressed... I wish she'd answer my email...