My last post

I was upset about other things when I wrote it.  I would never wander from him, I love him too much.

My Boyfriend

I love my boyfriend, don't get me wrong but it's a long distance relationship.  It drives me crazy!  For many reasons.  One is the lack of physical contact.  Sometimes I just need to be held.  Sometimes I want someone to hold my hand.  But he's across the country, so I can't get that...  It's almost like I'm still single.  No, not almost, it frequently feels that way.  I don't know what to do.  When I'm upset, when I need that attention, my eyes wander and my heart questions.  He doesn't want to move from California to here.  But I CAN'T move from here to California.  The doctors I have are too good to be easily replaced.  One of them, it would be nearly impossible!  I have no clue what I should do...

Naughty Night Spirit

Arashi, an ancient Japanese night spirit, waited on his human to wake up.  He looked back at her from the deck that surrounded his ancient Japanese style home.  She was a wonderful girl.  He had been in a deep depression.  Not unusual for a spirit who lives his life in eternal darkness.  His brother, Hikari, had given her to him.  She had been equally depressed in the human world.  Hikari was a day spirit, they rarely saw each other.  The human had done wonders for Arashi.  And he had done wonders for her.  Arashi was rich and powerful.  Whatever Ally wanted, he made sure she got it.  She returned the favor as best she could.  Even giving her body to him sometimes.  At first she seemed very nervous, but she liked it now.  Ally made sounds of stirring and he went to her.  He smiled as he gave her food, "Your smell has gone away.  We can go to that bath house you've wanted to go to."  Every human reeked when they came into the spirit world.  But after 2-3 days the smell went away.  Ally replied, "Does that mean you'll stop avoiding me now?"  He had been avoiding her to some degree.  Whenever they were together he tied a cloth around his nose.  But it was gone now and they could move through the spirit world as they pleased.  IF they pleased.  Arashi changed to his spirit form and wrapped himself around the naked human.  They had had sex right before she went to sleep and she hadn't bothered to put her clothes back on.  He had come to love her.  She was the only being who, not only wasn't scared of it, but liked his world.  He changed back to his human form and wrapped his arms around her breasts.  "Ally, do you love me?"  She leaned back against him, "I've answered this so many times."  "Answer it again."  "Yes, I do."  "Say it."  "I love you."  Arashi liked to hear her say it.  He shifted his grip.  Moving one hand down to finger her clit and the other continued to grope her breasts.  She smiled and made a soft noise.  Sometimes what he liked was for her to accept his advances.  Which she did.  They felt so good, why would she deny them?  He gently laid her on the floor and got on top of her.  She smiled up at him.  He leaned down and kissed her passionately.  He gently inserted his dick in her.  The last thing he wanted was to hurt his treasure.  He started off slowly, like he always did.  Then began to pick up speed.  Ally moaned and arched her back.  Maybe it was because he was a spirit, but he always made her feel so good.  He changed his angle slightly and she nearly came off the floor.  She nearly screamed in pleasure.  Arashi was holding her down.  She came, then came again.  Arashi could make her cum so many times.  He was so good.  He stopped when she looked completely exhausted.  He changed to his spirit form and curled around her.  Ally lay against him, and fell asleep.  When she woke up he had decided to take her to the spirit bath house.  He sent word so that they could prepare a bath for them.  He was rich, and the owner loved money.  So if he wanted to bathe in a section with a cover over it to keep the light out, that's what he'd get.  He also sent word about Ally and the behavior he expected from them towards her.  When she woke up he flew her to the baths.  She shaded her eyes.  Even the street lamps were more light than she had become accustomed to.  And when they entered the bath house she nearly cried out.  It was so bright.  Arashi put his hand over her eyes, leaving a veil of darkness.  Ally had been too blinded by the light to see that he had changed forms or the frightening spirits around them.  She attached herself to his arm.  Arashi wore a veil of darkness over his eyes, too.  They could see through the veils, it just canceled out the bright light.  One of the employees led them to a bath with a cover attached to the privacy walls and a curtain at the entrance.  She told the she would be back with food.  Having never been to anything like this before, Ally wasn't sure what to do.  "Take your clothes off and get in the bath." Arashi told her as he stripped.  Ally slowly let her clothes fall off.  Teasing the almost constantly horn spirit.  He changed to his spirit form and grabbed the now naked girl and pulled her in.  The employee's return earned a fierce glare from Arashi.  She quickly put the food down and left.  He was in his human form, nuzzling and fingering her.  Straddling the sweet girl.  She tried not to make any noise because they weren't truly alone.  But he wanted her to.  He lifted her up onto the side of the bath and began tickling her clit with his tongue.  She was breathing hard, but still didn't make any noise.  Her resolve was weakening.  And she soon started to moan softly.  He continued.  She began to struggle to keep her moans quiet.  Until a loud one finally escaped her.  She fell back, jolted out of the sexual high.  She clamped a hand over her mouth and looked embarrassed.  He smirked and pulled her back into the bath.  He was horny as hell when it came to her.  The bath was shallow, so he sat her down and started going at her again.  "The silence of the night keeps noise from getting out."  It was true and she trusted him.  So she didn't bother trying to hold back her moans.  Even as he thrusted inside her he had one hand down there, playing with her clit.  He felt her cum.  Her juices mixing with the warm water of the bath.  He liked that image.  Arashi finally stopped and let her eat some of the food that had been provided.  She was out of juice anyway, he had felt it.  So she needed to get some liquid in her to make more.  Not that he left her alone.  He founded her and kissed all over her body.  Waiting patiently for her body to make more of her precious juice.

Using this as a diary again

Why do I still feel lonely, even thought I'm dating a great guy.  I don't always feel lonely, and it's decreased a lot.  But when I do feel it, it's intense.  The kind that creates depression.  I know I need/want more attention than most people can/are willing to give.  But I can't help it.  I can keep quiet about it, but that doesn't really get anything done.  The people I want attention from always fuss when I ask for it.  Calling me needy, telling me to shut up, or give it half-heartedly.  Those are just some examples.  So I'm scared/hesitant to ask for it because those responses make me feel like a burden and, even though it's not their intention, they embarrass me.  Which makes me extremely unlikely to ever ask again.  Sometimes, I don't even want to risk it.  Either I don't want to mess something up, it has annoyed them before, I don't want to feel rejected, or whatever.  So I end up holding it in and eventually I cry it out.  But it never all leaves...

Naughty Nobles

A select few of the noble and royal kids were having a party.  They were ages 18-25 but kids because their parents were still alive.  Flirting, dancing, engaged couples kissing and touching.  The only rules were: No violence.  Clothes stay on.  No telling what happened.  These parties were closely guarded.  Little of what happened in there was royal or noble behavior.  The single girls were talking about having a sleep over.  Some of the single men over heard, and made plans to get together on the same night.  The sleepover night came and the girls went to Alisha's room.  She was a princess, so had a big room.  They changed into their special pajamas.  All transparent cloth, lace, and skin.  Alisha pulled out her toy box and their card game "Naughty Nobles".  They gathered in a circle and started to play.  They knew the guys were at the door.  The men had come later, so the girls wouldn't see them.  They opened the door a crack and looked in.  A few had major crushes on certain girls and with the skimpy clothes and sexy things they were doing.  They were the first to start stroking themselves.  The girls played their game until one of them struck out.  She drew a card from the "Deeds" pile.  "Bounce on a dildo until you cum while moaning a name chosen by the girl on your left.  The girl, Valley, replied promptly, "Phillip."  Janie, the girl who had struck out, grumbled and started bouncing and moaning the name.  Janie despised Phillip.  It took awhile before the next one struck out.  She had to wear a clit tickler for the rest of the night while still participating in everything.  Once your clothes came off, for example, to use the dildo or put on the clit tickler, they stayed off for the rest of the night.  Usually ending with all the girls naked.  And after they went to sleep, their pajamas "mysteriously" disappeared.  The guys, thinking the girls didn't know they were there, were taken aback when one of the girls drew a mystery card.  She got to pick a girl and tell her what to do.  "Okay.  Kimi, you have to give the guy who has a crush on you a blow job.  And swallow."  Kimi sighed and opened the door.  They all knew which guy had crushes on which girl.  Tyler had a crush on Kimi.  She didn't want to, but that was the way the game worked.  You had to.  She started licking the head, flicking her tongue over it.  He was already hard.  She took it slowly into her mouth.  Licking around his shaft as she took it in.  He came fast.  He was crazy about Kimi.  And her giving him a blow job made it so much better than it would have been if it were any other girl.  The other girls smirked and invited him to stay.  The others had to stay outside the door.  The next girl that struck out was Valley, she drew this deed card, "Passionately kiss someone chosen by the person who placed the last card for 30 seconds."  Which was Courtney, "Kyle~".  Kyle had a crush on Valley.  As big a crush as Tyler had on Kimi.  Kyle was brought into the room and they kissed.  Valley knocking his hand away when he tried to finger her.  Kyle was invited to stay.  "New rule!  Once a guy has been brought in to help you fulfill a deed card they can touch and kiss you, but not in any private area."  Kyle and Tyler immediately took advantage of this.  Smirking at the guys still at the door.  Kimi and Valley were very glad when Courtney, who had made the new rule, struck out next.  "Allow yourself to be fingered in anyway until you cum by a person chosen by the one opposite you in the circle."  Which was Valley, "James~"  Sweet revenge.  James started at her.  She already had no underwear on from having to bounce on the dildo.  James fingered her and fondled her breasts, taking his sweet time getting her to cum.  To the point the other girls started playing again.  Kimi struck out next, but drew a gold card.  She looked around.  Alisha and Janie were the two left without their crushed by them.  Janie was barely holding it together because of the clit tickler so she decided to spare her.  "Alisha, you have to let Phillip finger fuck you." Actual sex wasn't allowed.  She took off her underwear and Phillip started.  She moaned.  Courtney turned to James and said angrily, "Instead of biding your time, how about you do it right!"  James took the obvious hint and both girls moaned.  Arching their backs as their g-spots were stroked.   The two couldn't help but smile, they guys were good.  James and Phillip licked the cum of their obsessions off their fingers.  Then started kissing and rubbing them, like the other men.  Except poor Michael, who was still waiting at the door.  Watching as his beloved Janie tried to keep herself together.  Janie struck out next.  No one was surprised.  Her mind was so far gone that someone else had to read her deed card for her.  "Have a person chosen by the person on your right give you a blow job.  This seemed like a good one.  Get her to cum and hopefully get her mind back.  Of course the last guy was chosen, Michael.  He had a crush on Janie.  More than any of the other guys had.  He gladly went down on her.  Because of how long she had been wearing the clit tickler, she came fast.  And was the only girl to show affection towards her guy.  They kept playing the game.  It actually wasn't long before all the girls were naked.  The guys were going crazy.  And seeing Janie allow Michael to touch her anywhere and anyway he wanted only frustrated them more.  Eventually, Courtney gave in.  And James went crazy on her.  One by one the girls slowly let their guy touch them freely.  The guy's mouths were everywhere.  The game had to be stopped because the guys wouldn't.  Valley pulled herself free long enough to yell, "New rule!  Pants have to stay on!"  The guys weren't thrilled about this, but rubbed themselves against them.  Tyler soon calmed his mind enough to call out "Girls broke the pants on rule, no longer valid."  One of the guys kicked the door shut.  With in minutes there were clothes spread everywhere.  And 10 naked young nobles.  Some of te girls were irritated and made half hearted protests.  But soon scrummed to the sex.  The room filled with gasps, moans, and heavy breathing.  The room soon reeked of cum and was stiflingly hot.  But no one wanted to stop.  Even to open a window.  Whenever the guys went limp the girls stroked them until they were hard.  This went on until they passed out.  Some guys fell beside their girl, others landed on top.  None of them could wait until the next sleepover.